here's to both wine bottles and juice boxes

photos in drawers

facebook posts and empty spaces

instagram photos and forced smiles

names so worn and said too often

escaped through my own lips though no longer friendly

their routines

her persona

no longer something i would choose

but just something i miss the simplicity of

new ideas

new people

old already

welcoming arms but to my discomfort

too old for the old and too young for the new

raise your glass spilling with the white wine

or your solo cup of apple juice with your name etched in permanent marker

here's to never fitting in again

here's to a life with not knowing what to let go of.

-soo hyun

#writing